Healing.

H,

The greater wave of our time we spend trying to fix some exterior problem that is not us. We have fallen for the old trick of the blind side. We do not see into ourselves enough and so the problem always becomes other people. We have done enough but there is something left for them to do. This concentration on what the outer circle of others do is at the forefront of our deception about ourselves.

In the truest sense of the word of God, there is no change in other people that must happen before you can change. When God addresses you, it is exclusive. This is always the day of your salvation. This has always been about your healing. There is no gift of discernment to give you leeway into other lives and an excuse to bother other people about the things they are doing wrong. He tells us to remove our own blindside first. To see clearly. This in itself is a lifelong event.

Now, this may seem like a recipe for selfishness. It may seem like this is about an undue focus on your own spiritual state to the detriment of others. I assure you, it is not. What it is really, is the great humbling. It is finally admitting you do not have the tools to be anyone’s saviour. Not even your own. What you are left with is love. The good book leaves us in no doubt about what love is. It is act above feeling and character above immediate gratification. We practice ordinary kindness, patient reflection on the flaws of others and constant forgiveness because those are the things we can choose. They are the acts and the character of life as God intends it to be and, yes, you guessed it, there are part of our healing. When we look at our own soul and its care we are really focusing on how we treat others. For all our faith is to fall in love with God and when we do we are then told to focus that on others. We are told to act to others as God has acted toward us.

These are impossible acts, unbelievably hard reactions and a huge thorny crown. It is raw, it is human and it is almost unhealthy to your present state to look to act above what you receive from others. Like all other things it is impossible unless you have divine help. To fail at it, to fail spectacularly at it, to encounter depths to your own depravity that you did not know before and see all fantasies fade about your innate good and much hallowed good intentions is what should really happen.

Do not panic. You are just healing.