"Your fire is dim."

H,

There is certainly no denying that everyone’s fire will go dim at some point. The winds are up and there is constant threat of drowning in the black waters of normal life. The difference is if the fire will die out completely or if it will come alive again. That is the choice before us all. This is the much touted free will of the soul.

In one great sense once you give in to the utter reality we now call truth, there is no turning away from it. It will haunt you as ghost or embolden you as spirit for the rest of your life on earth. You can lapse but you cannot forget the first day the whole universe made sense in your head and, more crucially, in your heart. It will colour everything you do and you can no longer be indifferent about the great argument about being. You will pick a side and you will be passionate about it. It will make sense to you. There is an unbridgeable gap between the two viewpoints: one points to beauty and poetry and a creator’s heart while the other points to randomness and that dark abyss in pre-creation and takes the story on from there with a different cause if not a different outcome. You can see the viewpoint I believe in from my words. I know what you believe. We have gone past all that.

The question becomes about viability in the modern world. We are not prone to turning the other cheek or giving over all of us or visiting prisons. Yet, that is not the problem. There is work to be done to align us with the divine heart and we accept that. I think the problem becomes how much work is to be done. This is when dismay sets in. This is when serpentine logic taunts us with ideas of all things being equally the same and no idea over deity more superior to the other. In relativity we find the idea that our choices have no meaning and no bearing on real events. It becomes like everything else: we choose what is most convenient because it is all going the same way, after all.

This is where I think our particular flame is in trouble. It is all becoming the same to us. There is no difference between deep and shallow, right or wrong, before and after. We are in the same game with the same end result. We have forgotten the fundamental difference between trying to be someone and being who we are.

And do you know why I am not so worried?

To realize this great flaw, or any of the many still dormant or active in our volcanic hearts, is proof that the fire is still on.