28th of January, 2016

Proverbs 3

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Well, yes we do have another blueprint for the existence of everything else. We did not make it up. We were made within it. The first thing wisdom tells us is to know the true scope of our role in creation: nothing at all. We do not know how we got here and we do not know where we are going. We speculate, interpret, feel it by ear or heart but we are not in any certainty as to the true nature of present reality or true eternity. We see marks and signs and symbols and live by faith but not sight. If we start here then we are on safe ground. We are not wrestling with creationism versus evolution because our aim is slightly higher than both. We want to know about the yearning inside the human heart and the hungers of our very soul. We want to know what fills it all up. We do not merely want to point a finger at being right, in fact that is not what we want at all, but to live in the very river of truth.

A long time ago, this fell for you and I as light across a certain path. We set out to find the riches it promised. It is not an easy road but it is the road so that makes it simple. We are learning every day that wisdom is to look at the whole picture with an open heart and a packed bag. It is the pilgrim who makes progress. We will not know it all the beginning. The thing we believe tells us not to play the numbers game. There are no prodigies in living a life of truth and wisdom. It is not about linear time at all. You get it when you get it and there is no need to skip any step. We are walking a narrow road but it leads to only one place. It is not a sprint to the finish. We have to feel every mile in our legs.

 And you know how I hate walking.

So, we beat on. How can we give the thing up now? It has gotten to the point where there is nothing else really going on. We may get the details wrong but the heart of it is absolutely true. You sort of lose the taste for anything else. You chase your consolations but that game soon grows into gripes. And back on the road we are. I know I make it sound all bleak but it is really not. It is like the daily death of any marriage or any real friendship. It is feels like compromise but it is really old nature against new nature or it does not really work. If you listen beyond your pride you will know when you must admit you are wrong and stop doing things because you think you are always right. On this road to God, we do not even have that dilemma. We know we are already wrong. We are being made right. The highs and the lows, the feeling inept and unfulfilled, the seeming failure and the shame or guilt of constant trips to the dark side only speak of one thing: the wisdom to sit and rest and replenish for the road under the beautiful tree of life that is God. That too is walking.