“What happens to the heart.”

H,

It is never simply fine to do as we please. We know what happens to the heart. There is no free lunch, even in the soul. Things will affect you. Dwelling in the darkness has its effect. We cannot simply seek the disbalance of feeding one side of ourselves. We are whole people for a reason. We are all made for bigger things and should not be slaves to any one thing or anything at all.

This is the main problem with addiction. It reduces us to our needs and then to one single need, all the time. We cannot function without succumbing to it, and this over and over again. It takes a toll on who we are and who we can be. Sin, defined as turning our nose up at the light, has much the same effect. It is not a single thing but a “posture of defiance”, a push away from God and a worship of the transient and the temporal. Without the context of eternal good, we fall into the trap of self-reference. It becomes a matter not of the validation of self but the preponderance of self over everything else. The heart becomes removed from the universal nature of existence and becomes trapped in today but spread over a lifetime. Living for today and tomorrow and then the next is the most limiting view of existence there is.

And the heart cannot fold itself into this new meaning. It continues to beg for more. It needs more. It cannot be healthy in this state. It cannot be full. It is constantly hungry and constantly wrought. It begins to look for thrills and not wholeness, for power and not love, and, finally, for glory and not meaning. The only hope there is to become what it was meant to be in the first place: the House of God.