“Wilting.”

H,

Everyone lives in a fragile state. We present as all together but we are frequently falling apart. We are always wilting from some unseen force or known fear. We are not having the best time of it and this is well hidden when we succeed, and more exposed if we fail. Failure and success are the currency of how we truly appear.

By success and failure, I do not mean in monetary terms. Many people have overt success at living exactly the sort of life they believe in. They are married and stable and live in the sort of house they want to. They do not want or need a lot of money. And they do not have a lot of money. But it is fundamentally the same. They sense an endlessness to living, a desperation, a realization that life has no meaning after you get everything you want. If you are chasing something and never catch it, you can live a whole life of ‘meaning’ in pursuit of the ideal. If you do catch it, the questions begin.

In either case, the hunger and the wilting go on. We must reconcile this even in the light. We are not advanced human beings because we know some aspects of God. It is does not stop the wondering. It will not kill the questions. We are all on a journey, all carrying our states along the road to meaning and we are all doing this with hearts that could break at any moment. We should always remember to be kind to ourselves and each other, along the way.