“The Country Inside and the Country Outside.”

 

H,

 

We always seem to be in two wars: one with the country inside and one with the one outside. We are battling with the troubles in our heart and the troubles around us. It is important that we win both but only one is truly up to us. We can make the right choices to open our heart to change and we can create a platform that gives other choices to the country we intend to serve. We do not control either outcome but only one is directly linked to our own choices.

 

It is important to know this distinction. Your heart comes first not out of selfishness but out of necessity. Out of the fixing of your own heart will flow everything else you have to give to the world. This does not mean we will “fix” all there is before we approach any external troubles. That will mean a lifetime of inertia. This means we need to be on the path of healing before we speak about healing. It means we must dwell in the light before we try to be a light. It means that we must be on the right road before we attempt to fashion a path for others.

 

I think we are, hiccups allowing. We gave in to something years ago that will always carry us home. We are not able to break free from our own freedom. We will live and die in this light. Nothing tastes and feels like it. Nothing compares to it. We remember it at our darkest moments, and we fall back to it once we hit the inevitable brick wall. What our country needs most is more creatures of the light. There are many like us: beyond gender, religion, creed, or ideology, who want to see things work for everyone. This is our family. These are the warriors that speak the things that are not as if they are and approach the dark with the healing, they themselves are experiencing. The country inside and the country outside will eventually align.